I used to be the type of person to walk away at the drop of a dime.
I was selfish and I only thought about whether or not my needs were being met.
It’s taken a lot for me to see that what I thought was a fierce will to protect my self from hurt and being taken advantage of was just fear of vulnerability and rejection.
Someone asked me to have some patience with them a few weeks ago and I haven’t forgotten it since.
I dunno if being patient will end with happiness or more loss. I know I’m tired of the latter. I know that choosing my happiness out of fear of loss creates a disparity I’m no longer ok with. I know that being patient opens me up to more compassion, healing and joy than being the strong one.
Ofcourse we deserve respect. Ofcourse we should set boundaries. We also deserve to have healing and support and joy. AND, we deserve the space to share that with others.
Yeah I’m strong. But it’s been my greatest weakness. Time to turn that around.
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